Goals

My boyfriend and I were talking about goals and I started thinking of things I’d like to accomplish so I figured what better way to get started than to get them down.

1. First and absolutely foremost I want to get my debt paid off.

2. Is a long-term goal but it stems from getting debt paid off - I want to own my own store. I’m keeping most of the details secret because it is so so special to me but I finally figured out what I want to do with my life!

3. I’ve been making terrariums but I want to make more and make them better.

4. Sewing. I already sort of know how to sew but I would like to get better so that I can alter a bunch of the vintage clothes I have and make some stuff of my own.

5. Furniture. I refinished two beautiful walnut office chairs a couple years ago. I’d love to refinish/paint more furniture and one day I would love love love to make some of my own. I also really want to learn how to reupholster.

6. Knitting. Duh you can make all kinds of awesome knit stuff.

7. Learn to cook. I cooked for the first time in my life a few weeks ago and now I would love to try out some other things. I guess after 25 years I am tired of ham sandwiches and frozen food. (That is a lie I will never tire of ham sandwiches, but I would like some variety and to eat healthier).

8. Continue to get better at photography. I’ve been shooting photos for 10 years now and I don’t think I’ve learned enough or gotten nearly as good as I hoped to be by this point, but I love shooting photos more than just about anything so I will continue to work at it! I want to learn to use a darkroom and I ultimately want to build a daguerreotype camera.

9. Screenprinting. I want to make awesome band shirts for my little monkey and other cool clothes. She has such good taste in music and band merch for someone her age is limited and expensive!

10. Play an instrument. I’ve wanted to learn to play guitar for years, wanted to be in a band since I was five years old. I am entirely too shy to do that but I still would like to learn for myself, and would love to be able to teach Tash some day.

11. Journal. I used to write a lot of songs and poetry growing up and developed a terrible writers block years ago. I’ve become increasingly less comfortable talking to others and spent a lot of time thinking it’d be tremendously therapeutic to try to find my voice again and to pour all my jumbled thoughts out on paper.

I could go on and on endlessly about things I want to learn, looking through this most of them are craft related. I don’t know what has come over me but in the last six months or so I have just wanted to grow up and learn to do things and spend my time productively rather than waste time and energy and money at the bar. That is not to say I will never go to the bar or drink again, but I think I am learning how to strike a better balance. I am a mother and would like to be someone my child can look up to and that can teach her to do things and spend time together being creative rather than just watching movies and eating microwave pizza. I’ve wasted a lot of time being angry and negative and being with people of the like - I was afraid to be alone but have finally started to realize the value of being alone and being peaceful than being popular amongst assholes.

So these are my goals for the coming months, and years as of now. I’m sure I will try some of these things and not like them, and I’m sure I will come up with new things to try to replace them, but as long as I am trying to grow and learn I know I will be much happier than I have been.

edit: and make jewelry. I forgot about that. and do more elaborate photo projects with sets etc.